My Thoughts & Songs

Emily Dickinson (1830–86).  Complete Poems.  1924

 "I've been up all night, you've been puttin' up a fight.
Seems like nothin' I say gets through.
How did this old bed fit a world between me and you.
We said "Goodnight" but the silence was so thick
you could cut it with a knife.
We've hit the wall again and there's nothin' I can do.
You're the one, yea, I've put all my trust in your hands.
C'mon and look in my eyes, here I am, here I am

You don't understand me, my baby.
You don't seem to know that I need you so much.
You don't understand me, my feelings,
the reason I'm breathin', my love

The mornin' comes and you're reaching out for me
just like everything's the same
and I let myself believe things are gonna change.
When you kiss my mouth and you hold my body close,
do you wonder who's inside?
Maybe there's no way we could feel each other's pain.
Tell me why it gets harder to know where I stand.
I guess loneliness found a new friend, here I am

You don't understand me...

You don't seem to get me, my baby.
You don't really see that I live for your touch.
You don't understand me, my dreams or the things I believe in, my love.
You don't (...) Understand me."...

/Rox./

 
"My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side

Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But your demons and your angels reappeared
Leavin' all the traces of the man you thought I'd be
Leavin' me with no place left to go from
Leavin' me so many questions all these years

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side... "

/S.C./

 
"She never took the train alone she hated being on her own
She always took me by the hand and say she needs me
She never wanted love to fail she always hoped that it was real
She’d look me in the eyes and say believe me
But then night becomes the day and there’s nothing left to say
If there’s nothing left to say then something’s wrong...

Oh tonight you killed me with your smile so beautiful and wild so beautiful
Oh tonight you killed me with your smile so beautiful and wild so beautiful and wild
And as the hands would turn with time she’d always say hat she was my mine...

She’d turn and lend a smile to say that she’s gone
But in a whisper she’d arrive and dance into my life
Like a music melody like a lovers song....

(...)

Through the darkest night comes the brightest light,
And the light that shines is deep inside,
It’s who you are...

Oh tonight you killed me with your smile so beautiful and wild so beautiful, (...)
So beautiful and wild... "

/R./